23 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
I waver between excitement for the future and the unending uncertainty that is my life.
19 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
I am going through the motions
Its what everyone wants to see
I am looking for emotions
Or the lack of inside of me
And even though it’s hard to shake this thing when its on your back
When you’re next to me
You make me feel like I could do that
A fitting quote.
21 Aug 2010 Leave a Comment
in Quotes
However long the night, the dawn will break. ~ African Proverb
Getting there.
21 Aug 2010 Leave a Comment
I felt better today than I have all week. I’ve also been eating better (what I have been able to eat), so perhaps that’s why. I got amazing news today! I’m eligible for 6 weeks or whatever of back-unemployment and have more to claim in the future. This is good, it can hold me over until I get settled in NC and get a job. I considered getting another tattoo with some of the back pay for my birthday, but I’m going to do the more responsible (yes, me, responsible) thing and save the money instead. All in all, I had a very good day! I also got an adorable text today which kind of started it off right! Also, last night Candi made/gave me and another friend the most badass and well thought out birthday presents EVER! So much fun! That’s really all I’ve got but life is looking up.
More randomness.
17 Aug 2010 Leave a Comment
I slept way too late today and now I can’t sleep tonight. Today was pretty productive, I washed all my clothes as well as my sheets. I also vacuumed the condo. I feel… not unhappy today. Not too shabby!
Blog of random thoughts.
16 Aug 2010 Leave a Comment
This is not an emo blog. This is just an update 
Moving in with my parents soon. Kind of excited, it will be like having my own little apartment. Kind of hoping I can have chickens (odd, I know), Will be interesting to see how my truck handles the mountains. I can go snowboarding this winter 
I almost have hope for the future, and to be honest, I forgot a long time ago what that felt like. I’ll be 26 soon. Getting old That’s all I’ve really got, it’s almost 630 AM and I want to lay in bed and read my newish book. The end.
21 Apr 2010 Leave a Comment
in Lyrics
If you are alive, then be truly alive.
Just open up your eyes. Pay attention to the signs.
The color of this sky, an endless night.
We missed the point of living
So caught up in this moment.
We threw out all convictions
And traded them for substance.
This life we hold so near will fade in time.
Spent wasted on that line.
It’s time you found some frame of mind.
This life you hold so near will fade in time.
24 Feb 2010 Leave a Comment
I’m overexisting in limbo
I’m over the myths and placebos
I don’t really mind if I just, fade away..
How I feel.
23 Feb 2010 Leave a Comment
Daylight dies
Blackout the sky
Does anyone care?
In anybody there?
Take this life
Empty inside
I’m already dead
I’ll rise to fall again
01 Feb 2009 Leave a Comment
I close my eyes and I smile
Knowing that everything is alright
To the core
So close that door
Is this happening?
My breath is on your hair
I’m unaware
That you opened the blinds and let the city in
God, you held my hand
And we stand
Just taking in everything.
And I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we’re trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony.
We’re both flying away.
So we talked about mom’s and dad’s
About family pasts
Just getting to know where we came from
Our hearts were on display
For all to see
I can’t believe this is happening to me
And I raised my hand as if to show you that I was yours
That I was so yours for the taking
I’m so yours for the taking
That’s when I felt the wind pick up
I grabbed the rail while choking up
These words to say and then you kissed me…
I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we’re trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony…
We’re both flying away.
And I’ll try to sleep
To keep you in my dreams
’til I can bring you home with me
I’ll try to sleep
And when I do I’ll keep you in my… dreams
I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we’re trying so hard not to fall asleep
So here we are
On this 18th floor balcony, yeah
I knew it from the start
My arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
No, we’re not going to sleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony… we’re both..
Flying away
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