I don’t have or want a reason to hate you.

Yes, I’m hurt. Yes, it sucks. Yes, I bitch on my blog about it, and yes, we argue.

But fuck, you broke up with me. You did the RIGHT thing. Rather than lead me on and make me (and you) feel shittier in the long run, you did what was necessary, and ended it when the time was right. I can’t and won’t hate you for that. I don’t want to.

Time will heal this. Time, and less arguing. We seem to be getting better at that, according to tonight. Let’s keep it up. I don’t want to lose you completely, I don’t want you to hate me, I don’t want to hate you. I want to come out of this with at least our friendship intact, or maybe even better.

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Yay!

The Juno soundtrack.

And the movie.

And the Moldy Peaches.

Whose got the crack?

I knew I was losing you a long time ago, when you stopped trying to even talk to me. You can blame this all on me if you want, but you say you still want to be friends and then do stuff like this, stuff that if you even thought about you’d know would hurt me. And I get that it’s not all about me. I’m not a fucking moron. But it’s always just been about you, for once, can’t I have just a piece of that pie?

How much more of my mind can I lose before it’s done?

How far do I have to go to outrun all of this?

I can’t do this.

You fucking broke me. You ground my heart into the ground, you did what I thought was impossible, and you broke me. And you can’t even pretend to care.

I don’t want to die…I just don’t want to do this anymore.

all these lines fall short of what i had in mind
a failed attempt to capsulize a feeling
so i just try fail and try and try again
someday i swear i’m going to get it

I found the pieces in my hand
They were always there
It just took some time for me to understand
You gave me words I just can’t say
So if nothing else
I’ll just hold on while you drift away
‘Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

Chorus
The cities grow
The rivers flow
Where you are I never know
But I’m still here
If you were right
And I was wrong
Why are you the one who’s gone
And I’m still here

I’ve seen the ashes in my heart
I smile the widest
When I cry inside and my insides blow apart
I tried to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place
But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be

Chorus

Maybe tonight
It’s gonna be all right
I will get better
Maybe today
It’s gonna be ok
I will remember

I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered
And I wanted you to come and make me whole
Then i saw you yesterday
But you didn’t notice
And you just walked away
‘Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

Chorus

The lights go out
The bridges burn
Once you go you can’t return
But I’m still here
Remember how you used to say
I’d be the one to run away
But I’m still here
I’m still here
I’m still here

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They can hardly stand boredom or routine in a relationship. They do not like conflicts at all; if a relationship becomes too strenuous or involves too much effort, they tend to withdraw from the partnership and start to look for a new partner. However, if one manages to keep their curiosity alive in the long term and surprise them again and again, one has a loyal and loving partner.

Maybe I’m not ready for this, and you know it.
Maybe I’m too scared to tell you what I’m really thinking
It’s not fair to stay together because of regrets we might have.
I don’t want to fall asleep alone, but do I want to wake up with you?
I’m only trying to be completely honest.

So I guess this is the ending or a beautiful mistake.
And if we both agree that we shouldn’t be together why does it hurt so much?
I feel like I lost my closest friend.
I don’t want to fall asleep alone, but do I want to wake up with you?
I hope you’re happy and completely lonely.

There I am standing all alone on Sydney Harbor Bridge.
And you know I would jump into the fucking ocean if it meant I was truly capable of being satisfied.
Well I ever be?
Did I just give up the best thing I ever had?

I don’t want to fall asleep alone, but do I want to wake up with you?
I hope you’re happy and completely lonely.
I don’t want to fall asleep alone, but do I want to wake up with you?
I’m only trying to be completely honest.

I’m going crazy here and you couldn’t even give a damn.

I’m kind of upset by this, but more upset that you didn’t even see fit to tell me and i found out from myspace. I’m tired of finding shit out from myspace….so goodbye myspace.

It feels like this postcard was written for me.