Momentary anger.
01 Jul 2008 Leave a Comment
The good news – I got the meter reader position.
There really is no bad news. I’ve noticed lately that I get a lot of momentary anger. Well, less anger, more frustration. Stupid things, like WoW. But I’m getting better at staying calm and letting them pass. Seeing how petty that shit is and moving past it.
I can finally see a future. Permanent jobs are helpful in that way. Less stress.
I’m learning to cope in more healthy ways. And even sleep sometimes.
well you never would’ve thought in the end
how amazing it feels just to live again
it’s a feeling that you can not miss
and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it
Still I’m convinced that wondering what if is the worst thing there is.
15 Jun 2008 Leave a Comment
I knew I was losing you a long time ago, when you stopped trying to even talk to me. You can blame this all on me if you want, but you say you still want to be friends and then do stuff like this, stuff that if you even thought about you’d know would hurt me. And I get that it’s not all about me. I’m not a fucking moron. But it’s always just been about you, for once, can’t I have just a piece of that pie?
How much more of my mind can I lose before it’s done?
How far do I have to go to outrun all of this?
I can’t do this.
You fucking broke me. You ground my heart into the ground, you did what I thought was impossible, and you broke me. And you can’t even pretend to care.
I don’t want to die…I just don’t want to do this anymore.
So it would seem.
08 Jun 2008 Leave a Comment
I’m kind of upset by this, but more upset that you didn’t even see fit to tell me and i found out from myspace. I’m tired of finding shit out from myspace….so goodbye myspace.
It feels like this postcard was written for me.
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