I close my eyes and I smile
Knowing that everything is alright
To the core
So close that door
Is this happening?

My breath is on your hair
I’m unaware
That you opened the blinds and let the city in
God, you held my hand
And we stand
Just taking in everything.

And I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we’re trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony.
We’re both flying away.

So we talked about mom’s and dad’s
About family pasts
Just getting to know where we came from
Our hearts were on display
For all to see
I can’t believe this is happening to me

And I raised my hand as if to show you that I was yours
That I was so yours for the taking
I’m so yours for the taking
That’s when I felt the wind pick up
I grabbed the rail while choking up
These words to say and then you kissed me…

I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we’re trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony…
We’re both flying away.

And I’ll try to sleep
To keep you in my dreams
’til I can bring you home with me
I’ll try to sleep
And when I do I’ll keep you in my… dreams

I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we’re trying so hard not to fall asleep
So here we are
On this 18th floor balcony, yeah

I knew it from the start
My arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
No, we’re not going to sleep

Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony… we’re both..
Flying away

<3 Bearded Dragon

Let’s see, life is decent. No, life is good. Still have a job, my parents moved so I live alone but only for another week. A friend of mine from BN, Kim, is moving in with me. That’s good for both of us as it’s a good place for her to live and it makes me a little free-er in the wallet area. Still WoW-ing it up, dinged 74 cause I’m slow. Henry is coming from 12/31 – 1/10, so I’m excited about that.

I’m trying my hardest to let go and be happy for you both. It still hurts a little inside, but I know for a huge fact that we were never right for each other and I sincerely hope that you guys are. I don’t know that we’ll ever be comfortable in the same room, but I’m trying my damnedest to not harbor malice.

That’s really all I got.

Who was it that lead you on
that makes you want to hurt me so
Who do you want to forget
who forgot you long ago…

The most you could hope to be is
now just a bitter sweet memory

I miss the sound of your voice
Loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said

“The one who makes life come to life. “

<3 Kings of Leon.

I should be sleeping but I’m not. Grrr boys.

I’ve been working a lot.

Yay money.

Can’t wait for this shitty election to be over so I can have a life again.

I need fucking ice cream. With Kerri.

And camping. With beer. LOL.

Soooooooooooooooooooon, the house will be all mine.

I’ve waited and I’ll wait some more
Won’t see me knocking on another door
But all this is crazy and amazing
There’s only one half of us that I’m saving
So I’m praying just to let it go
Watch from a distance just to see you glow
Seven hundred places, seven hundred faces more

If you just walked away,
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?
I am the mess you chose,
The closet you cannot close,
The devil in you I suppose
Cuz the wounds never heal

But everything changes if I could,
Turn back the years if you could,
Learn to forgive me then I could,
Learn to feel

Sometimes the things I say
In moments of dissaray
Succumbing to the games we played
To make sure that it’s real

But everything changes if I could,
Turn back the years if you could,
Learn to forgive me then I could,
Learn to feel

When it’s just me and you
Who knows what we could do?
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day

But everything changes if I could,
Turn back the years if you could,
Learn to forgive me then I could,
Learn how to feel and we could,
Stay here together and we could,
Conquer the world if we could,
Say that forever is more than just a word

If you just walked away,
What I could really say?
And would it matter anyway?
It wouldn’t change how you feel

I just wanted to tell you I miss it.

I’m not coming back
(Forgive me)
I’ve done something so terrible
I’m terrified to speak
(I’m not calling, I’m not calling)
But you’d expect that from me
I’m mixed up, I’ll be blunt
(You’re driving me crazy)
Now the rain is just washing you out of my hair
And out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world
From so many thousands of feet off the ground
I’m over you now
I’m at home in the clouds, towering over your head